Happy?

things have been going on pretty well. or i'd like to think so. i've just learnt to not give any fucks that often anymore.
when we care too much, and it is not returned, we get disappointed.
when we expect too much, and the results aren't as good, we get hurt.
when we put too much faith in humanity, and they somehow do something toake us lose that faith again.
i've been ranting out loud to many people and getting pissed off one too many times.
i don't know if i'm gonna be that grumpy woman in the future.
yet somehow i'm comfortable with who i  right now.
not being in the same class as everyone else has probably been a blessing in disguise. i don't talk asuch and actually pay attention to teacher. but idk why i try cause the teachers are really crap. not all but a couple. it makes me wonder if they had actually passed their english tests or tests in the subjects they teach before being allowed to teach.
don't get me wrong there are teachers i do like.
and those aren't many.
back to topic anyway, idgaf if i don't get to talk to my friends, idgaf if i'm left out, idgaf if people think i'm annoying i just dgaf, you know.
and that doesn't make me sad or anything.
it's like i've come to this stage where i don't mind.
life can hit me with anything. i feel strong.
maybe it's because i know, deep down, i've got friends for life. cheesy yea but it's true that's what i feel.
i did quite well this exam but well it's only the first.
i shouldn't get ahead of myself and be too confident and expect too much and let myself down again.
i sincerely hope i will see all my friends succeed in life along with myself. i'm confident that they can do it and i oughta have some confidence for myself too perhaps.
another thing is that i think i've rekindled my passion for writing once again. perhaps i'll be a writer someday. perhaps not. whatever it is, live in the moment. give your best now and you won't regret it in the future. ever.

*cheers*