Driving License #2 : Undang

The first thing you gotta do after signing up is go for a ceramah. A dreaded 6 hours of sitting down and listening to people talk crap loll. 

I had to postpone this for sooo many weeks because of camp and orchestra, but finally I got to go.

I was supposed to be at the office of the driving school at 8am sharp, so I arrived there at 8am, sharp, but still got scolded by the uncle (wut) and then spent like an hour and a half in the car going to fetch 2 other people from FAR FAR away. 

Reached at the place at about almost 10, got our books and immediately went in to the 'dewan'. The place was in Damansara and it was really run down D:

There were some video clips playing when I walked in, clips of like scary accidents and stuff (were they like trying to scare us to not take our license or smth idk) and soon the penceramah walked in. 

He was nice and joked around quite alot, but all he told us was to buy his cd and go home and study. Literally, that's it. 

Then came lunchtimee at around 12.

There was this girl who came in the same car as me and her name was Ruo Yi (i think) and she was also 17 (yay to early babies). Afterwards I found out that everyone from the car I came in was also 17 (triple yay). So anyway after going to the toilet (which was really digusting btw) we went in again for a second session of ceramah. Another man took over and this  guy was probably on drugs or smth he would be talking normally, and then shout all of a sudden. But he was more informative and told us which chapters to focus on et cetera. 

He told us we had to listen to him till 4.30 (dies) but then released us at 2.30 (lolz to the jpa rules) 

So the car came to fetch us and we went homeee wheee. (There was this super lz guy in the same car and he looked so much like yubing omg ok *fangirls*)

Usually someone would take the computer test like the week after but me being me, i postponed it for almost a month cause of school exams. I called the office like a week and a half earlier but she didnt book the day for me wtf so when I called to confirm a day before, they were so confused as to why i was calling zzz. I only started reading like the night before and I tried the 'mock test' that the penceramah put in the cd. And i failed hahaha so I got scared and I stayed up till 1am doing it until I passed with like 94% or smth. 

The next morning, uncle came to pick me at 9am, and obviously we had to go for another hugeee round around all of KL before actually reaching our destination. Reached the centre about 10.30 am and had to wait until 11.45 before I could go in and take the test. Took 20 mins to complete the whole thing and got 49/50 hahahaha. But then after that I was late for the orphanage trip and probably made the whole world pissed at me heh. Most questions were exactly the same as the cd so it was easy peasy hahaah. There were 10 questions for colour blind and 50 for general knowledge. If you failed the colour blind one you literally fail the whole thing and can never drive in your whole life ok. 

So yay that's one part done and the next lesson would be the amali workshop for like 5 and a half hours (dies) learning about engines and how to change tyres and how to change engine oil and let's just hope I survive that. 

Soon you'll stop seeing pictures of my table like this 

all the time and I'll finally get a life. Peace.

I really wanna change the colour and layout of this blog and change everything asdfghjkl.

But first, exams.

BE NICE TO EVERYONE

So Chinese New Year has just passed. 

It was great, not the best, but fun!

So this incident happened :

I painted my nails, and yeah I'm probably the worst at painting my nails, but I was happy with what I had. But hey, when I reached my hometown, my auntie commented that it looked horrible. Ok so I was like feeling bad. Then that night, i scratched like 3 nails clean cause I decided I didnt like it anymore but I didn't bring back the remover with me. 

Fast forward to the next night when I went to my granduncle's for reunion night dinner. My auntie there (who's like 19) spotted my nails and she was like "why are like 3 nails bare?" And she offered to do it for me (awwww) and when I got back that night I decided that nothing anyone else said about my nails matters because someone likes it and patched it up for me ❤️

So I started thinking, like in life, when you criticise someone about their appearance / personality, it would make me feel how I felt about my nails. Then that person would take it really badly and start scratching off that part of them away, bit by bit. 

However, once in a while, someone notices it and offers to patch it up for them. And for that while, that person would feel that nothing but joy about that part of them, because someone likes it and fixes it for you and essentially, fixes you.

Don't forget to be nice 😘

denial

#foreverthirdwheel
you know, i told you i'd understand
and i do
just quit being in denial that you're completely head over heels over each other
so whatt if you're together all the time and people say you ditch friends and stuff
ignore them man
your feelings are the important part
do what makes you feel happy and i'll be happy
you don't owe an explanation to anyone to be together
separation is inevitable
between me and you and you and him
i don't really expect that anyone can balance their time SOOO evenly but hey you're still there for me to rant to and thats good enough for me
you know yourself best, and you know you've not lost yourself, but for the most part, it seems to everyone that you have

Driving License #1 : Signing Up

Thursday // 290115

Dad picked me up from school because he was on leave. Had lunch and went to Perfect Driving Academy Office (opposite IOI Boulevard) but it was closed eventhough the sign says its supposed to be open. Gave the number on the board a ring but no one answered. Dad decided to look for another centre because this one looked really shady and dirty anyway. So we drove around Puteri and Pusat Bandar, we saw a couple of schools bt finally decided to go into Central Driving School in Pusat Bandar. A lady called Linda attended to us and explained to us the process of getting a driving license. So first you will have to take the undang test which requires some 6 hours of ceramah (dies). Then you will get a L license which makes you eligible to take driving lessons, after which you clock in 16 hours of driving, you will take the JPJ driving exam at their circuit in Padang Jawa. [forgot to ask her about the on road exam tho damn]. It looked pretty okay and she quoted a price RM 1,500, 100 bucks lesser than the one at Giant but oh well, not really gonna spend the whole day searching nowhere for a school that offers 1.3k am I? Linda also mentioned that if you fail one JPJ exam, it will cost RM250 to resit the exam (screams). Though I am confident I probably can pass, I've heard many horror stories about examiners just simply failing you just because they can. (fingers crossed all goes well). Another interesting part she mentioned is that in the 16 hours of driving you need to clock, 5 hours will be spent at the JPJ centre learning the amali stuff like changing tyres, learning about the engine, changing oil etc. All in all I will probably have to go for about 8 driving classes with the instructor because I gotta juggle school and tuition as well (sigh). [they don't give you a set amount of classes, it depends on how long each class is, how fast you learn and how many more hours you have left]. I'll also have to set aside like 4 Saturdays (skipping orchestra practice) to go for all the exams and stuff.

Well I don't know what to expect but I hope it won't be like shit and I'll enjoy it because I really like driving hahaa (let's see what I say in a year). Praying hard that I can juggle the driving classes in between school and stuff and get it done with before hard core concert stuff and trials get in the way.
REGINA PLEASE PASS THE FIRST TIME.

Senior Year : January

So we just filled out our registration forms for SPM earlier today in school, and it seems unreal.
Unreal that I've managed to study until this level (lol) and survived.
Unreal that next year, everything will begin again.

A couple of things happened in just three short weeks of school.
(omg drama)

I kinda dropped BK as a subject, and I feel that certain people hate me for it (lol)
However, I'll stand by my decision and go through with what I currently have on my plate right now.
This whole process of me dropping the subject like provoked a few questions in my brain :
(i) if i don't take a 'religious' subject, does that mean that God isn't going to be with me with my other subjects now?
(ii) is the purpose of wanting me to take BK so badly solely driven by the desire for me to really get to know God better, to push up the statistics of the number of people taking BK in M'sia or any other?
The answer to question (i) is obviously, no. God loves me no matter and will stand by me as long as I live. Nothing I do is going to make Him bless me more, nothing I do is going to make Him bless me less. Whether I do take BK or not, the number of As God has planned for me to get is already in His hands. so yeah.
The answer to question (ii), however, I'm willing to give myself the benefit of doubt to. Maybe I'm missing out a chance to get an extra A or A+ or whatever, but I know that my spiritual journey isn't merely subjected to the exam subject only. It may be my parents' reasoning in wanting me to drop BK to escape the inevitable B or C and a slim chance of an A, but it is my reasoning to drop BK as a sign of respecting my parents' reasonings. One of my morals is to always have your parents' blessings before doing anything. If they do not support you, who else is going to?

(my mum told me that the number of As doesn't matter, as long as it's my best awwwww ♥)

I can't believe I cried for that LOLOLOLOL
(Bae is amazing)

Another brudder has been a good bruh too. He reminded me not to be too stressed up. 'Aim for something, work for it'. That's sortaaa what he said hahahaa. Glad to have someone with the same ambition and there to remind me that I'm not alone in facing all these stress. (awwww)

ALSO I'M REALLY GLAD TO BE BACK IN A CLASS WHERE THE STUDENTS ARE QUIET AS SHIT EVENTHOUGH THERE'S NO TEACHER IN CLASS. FLEMINGOS FTW HAHAHAHA.

Prefectorial board has been improving loads tbh. I'm thinking KP was chosen correctly. I don't think I could've handled conflicts so well and be as direct to teacher as him. But sometimes he has this sickening 'bo chak' attitude towards protocols. I mean, it's always good to change but sometimes, the old methods are there for a reason. It's impossible to make everyone happy but there's no need to make everyone unhappy either. But hey, I can't really complain since I'm not doing it better than him right. THAT, apparently, is something some people don't understand. If you were really SO good, the teachers would definitely have seen your potential during the interview and during tugases. Heck, YJ would even recommend you to be KP la. But the fact remains, you didn't get top 6, she did, so? Suck it up la pls. I can't rant directly to your face because I really don't want any conflict with you. Even not as top 6, you're not performing well, what does that say about you? Learn to set your demands correctly and maybe for once people will listen to you. Not yak and yak and yak about how YOU've been treated unfairly or how YOU are the one being left out or how YOU are the one doing everything. What have you even fucking contributed. Money? Time? You didn't sponsor anything for the room like someone else did. You aren't even willing to put aside your time to do your tugas because of HOMEWORK. what, I don't have homework now? All the f5 pengawas don't have homework now? Be realistic omg. You yourself complained that the previous AJKs are lazy and useless and now you're becoming exactly like them. The irony.
Then there's the issue of camp haisss. I'm glad all the AJKs can stand as one and all go to camp tgt but I'm super freaking glad that this is my last year facing this shit. Teacher is like soooooooooooo uuuggghhhhhh i can't even. She wants all the prefects to join Kelab Rukun Negara. LOLLL. Tbh it's a reallyy poor decision cause high school should be the time where we as students are given the oppurtunity to explore different activities through clubs and figure out our interests. It doesn't mean that if I choose to be a prefect, my whole school life is dedicated to the board. Thank God she's only forcing it on the f3s and if I were a f3 this year I'd probably quit.

Concert preparations are going to startt yayy.
Stage manager this year and I'm kind of clueless not as to what I need to do but more of like how the floor plans are drawn ahaha. I hope I won't be blur because I can't be blur because I don't want to kena marah. Excited to see if I can handle this or not because I've never done anything like this hehh. Well, we shall see ;)

Another thing I need to rant about is respect. Basically all these issues going on is happening because people are not respecting each others' decisions. For example, the respect I'm talking about here is like say someone utters a bad word, you being someone who is so 'good' and 'innocent' don't say bad words and never used them. So? Respect. Respect that others have the right to say and do what they want. Respect their opinions even if it's wrong by listening to it. Respect people who are even younger than you because age does not bring wisdom like at all. Respect people's decision. Whether it's something like being gay or simply choosing not to do homework today.
The world would be a much better place if everyone learnt to respect everyone else regardless of race, rank and age.

The last thing I'm going to say is that I extremely, one hundred and ten percent, hate people who think I am dumb. I mean, you can definitely scold me if I messed up, but I simply can't stand if someone says 'This one also don't know how to do' or 'You guys are so dumb'. LIKE FUCKK YOUUUUU, you weren't in my shoes and you will never be in my shoes, you're never going to fully understand what anyone else is truly going through, so if someone messes up, or doesn't give you what you want, or doesn't know something (no matter how big that something is already), just reprimand them / tell them and that's it. Never ever call someone dumb or say 'You don't know anything about it'.
I guess that's like plus points for Mr. Siow lolll cause eventhough he banyak times throw tantrum he never does say anything like that.

so January, hello and goodbye, February, please don't be shit eventhough you already are shit because everything clashes every weekend on you.

things i would tell you #2

i wish you would stop treating every girl like they want to pounce on you and make you their boyfriend or something.
all i want is to have a buddy to talk to and it so happens you and i click.
i've gone past that phase to have stupid crushes on everyone so i would like it very much if you could stop acting like i still have one on you.

or maybe,

you, just changed

scratch that, we both changed yep

in which case i'll just keep my distance.