I feel replaced.
For the first time in my life, I can say I feel lonely.
The people I thought I knew are moving on to new friends. Guess they got tired of my shit pretty quick.
The people that told me I wouldn't be forgotten are doing what they said they wouldn't.
I feel as though they're slowly slipping away from me, from my grasp.
And there's nothing I can do about it.
I guess I knew from the start that this was inevitable.
Different classes, different friends.
I guess I'm expected to move on as well, to find new friends.
I don't want new friends.
I don't want to let those already in my heart be replaced.
I'm not letting them slip away.
I feel like people in that class are being given the better oppurtunity to be with my friends. Mine.
Yeah, I'm selfish saying that.
They are getting the chance to make their mark on my closest friends.
I used to have the assurance when they said they would never leave me out, or replace me.
But what they said they wouldn't do, they are doing.
Ofcourse I couldn't possibly expect them to spend time with me, and me alone.
And it's my fault in the first place I didn't make the grade for that class.
Correction : the teacher fucked up the system.
I'm just gonna say this out loud, I have the same amount of rights as f or i or prii to be in that class.
Yet the teacher fucks it up. Bravo teacher. Job well done.
and they wonder why children nowadays do not want to be a teacher. The ready set of teachers now are such an embarrasment to the school and national education system and even to the students ourselves.
I could've cheated my way in like ks. But I didn't.
Stupid me? No, I just wouldn't want it that way.
It wouldn't have felt as right.
So to those people who are trying to steal my friends away, just know this, I'm never letting them go.
I could be paranoid and be overthinking, but I don't care, they are not going to be replaced in my heart, even if they do that to me.
For now, I've resolved to hate just about everyone and everything to do with this class.
